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buddhax3

"Nothing is permanent."

marijuana eyes -_-

sometimes i feel like im watching myself do things from outside my body , like i cant control anything .. like i have no say in what goes on .. BUT i do & i just dont take charge of my life .
i have a voice ! why dont i use it ? It's crazy because i hate when i think about something great to say or do after i already fucked up on something else ..... fml deadass .

most things seem to be going good ... mostly just having my babe back <3 he keeps me on the right track .. ......

"If your fucking you sucking , if your beating your eating ... "

-5th period math class .

I love me the haters....
I can't believe that girls .. older then me can act like such snobby bitches ;)
honestly though ... i can say i kept my cool pretty well ..
Are they really jealous i have him & they dont ? honestly though you guys are in college & you guys are acting like middle schoolers .. but its fine ill let it fly .

I'm hungry ; but i can't eat
I'm tired ; but i can't sleep
I'm sad ; & I could cry for hours.
I feel all these different feelings after this weekend & i just don't know what's what !
A part of me is telling me to let it go , its no good for you .
But another part just can't seem to let go...
I got a taste of love w. the right person .. but somehow its all going wrong ?
I don't know what that means!
I'm so sick & tired of trying to figure out what he wants.. He just can't tell me
He doesn't want stress but he looks for it himself.
I try so hard to , not be perfect ... but to be good enough .
I feel like nothings working & this boat might just sink .
Unlike all the others ... He's someone i actually see myself spending a long time with .
I might be young & naive & not know what i'm talking about yet.. But i know
how I'm feeling . I love HIM .
It's so hard to stop this feelings and these thoughts.
I just wish he could understand .. I wish he felt the same ..


I Hate That I Love You ....

Sincerely , Single&Hating it .

Buffalo Bound today ...
long 8hours on the bus , i can't deal .
Honestly every part of my body hurts for the simple fact i slept in a weird position in this uncomfortable ass seat ! Stopped at Syracuse , and it was SNOWING who the hell knew it would be snowing ...
Stopped at the terminal there to refuel , got me a subway "buffalo" chicken sub lol
& that shit was so lame omg i can't believe i payed 7 cash for that .
i payed 5 yesterday for the same shit at the deli by my house & it was BIGGER & BETTER.
But anyway ... Service on the way here is not making my MetroPCS phone very happy ... ghetto ass company every 3 hours it loses service in some different town every time .

AHHH i'm almost there though .. 2 more hours & i'm in Buffalo in my baby's arms x3

Music Thoughts

Listening to ; Hotel California - The Eagles .
Definitely brings me back , not to far but when I had just started dating my boyfriend and we went to our friends house to play rock band & we were drinking and i started singing all the words to this song ... omg so embarrassing but he was just laughing at me x3 it was too cute ! Damn i can't even believe that was a few months back .
Damn good times ! but yeah ... Things change in so little time and we seem to busy to notice the little things sometimes and we let it slip on by until one day when its so realize we lost it .
I'm glad everything is just the same but when i think about it sometimes i wish i could have done things differently to have things run a little smoother with my life .
Either way i'm happy with what i have and who I'm with if i wasn't with my baby i would be lost i thank god everyday for the life i live and no one can bring me down at this point . :D

Omg now Miss Independent Remix is playing lol i swore every time he put this on while we were together in the house was because he was playing it for me .. but then one day he completely shitted on me and said yeah NO . I couldn't help but laugh though .. Every time i heard this song i would automatically think of him no doubt about it ! Sometimes i would even play it to think of him and how he would sing in the shower... BUT NEVER TO ME ! lol

anyway this was just some thoughts floating around ....songs really make you think .

HAPPY HALLOWEEN ;

The night were all the creeps come out ! lol The Arabs from my corner store didn't need to buy a costume they went straight to their closet !! lmaoo they had on the turban and a long white robe and FLIP FLOPS ! mucho sexy . Too funny .. omg i couldn't stop laughing .. Anyway def went to get my grub on instead of getting dressed up and going to the Vill . . downer i wanted to get drunk ! but no money no honey "( SO anywho .. tonight i got home at 11:18 and who's not answering their phone my boyfriend isn't...... he's a old school weezy look alike .. Suits him he looks just like him !HAHAA! Well . . That's all for tonight i'm going to eat all my sisters candy because she did all the work & got all the goods for big MAMA ;]

If you judge people, you have no time to love them.
- Mother Teresa ; x3

Ain't that the truth .. you spend most of your energy pissin & bitchin' about people and you don't even know them , Or want to get to know them because you already have this ridiculous idea about them and how they are .. Its crazy the world we live in that that's how shit works.
If you spent a moment with someone new , getting to know them you never know they might become your best friend or love of your life !
Shit , people don't take the time to get to know me and hate me because i'm open and honest .
If i hurt your feelings ? so what ! you rather someone lie to you ?
Damn i see when peoples faces change when i talk about myself.. or others .. they can't believe what i say .. but i rather EVERYONE hear it from me then YOU .
Honestly though .. People hate people that are Different , that are Themselves .. that don't follow the crowd .. oh how they loath individuality because they lack it so ...
Don't try to fool others & put on an act just be you .. I don't judge others until i get to know them ... or sometimes not even at all because i have no time for the shit people be throwing out there its pointless and not worth my time ..

Sasha let them know ; HOFFA at us .

I have no time to love anyone but my boyfriend my very few selected friends & my family ....

FML FML FML FML

Eff this rain ! This weather is on some type of drugs .. & this wind UNBEARABLE ! i can't deal honestly ... Today it was raining so hard & i have this little bootleg umbrella that is not meant for the rain idk why the sell it but its only meant to look cute in your hand or bag. I need some type of beach umbrella .. i can't walk around with a flipped umbrella letting my hair FRIZZ up . oh no .
Ohh no & the shoes i had on today ! CONVERSE . -___- Smh . what was i thinking ?!
I mean i have rain boots ; but they look like i should have a damn AX chasing after defenseless women in the woods or something ... can we say murder boots !? anywho i need to think about these things when i look out the window and look past the tons of rain falling from the sky .
NEXT TIME ITS OUT WITH THE POLKADOT H&M UMBRELLA IN WITH THE RAINBOW BEACH UMBRELLA ooww ;] HOFFAA AT ME NIGGAA !

Quotes to feed the mind ...

MY OBSESSION;
the reason is quiet clear ...

"I don't mind living in a man's world as long as I can be a woman in it. "

"Sex is a part of nature. I go along with nature. "

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring"

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when their right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust noone but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

"Before marriage, a girl has to make love to a man to hold him. After marriage, she has to hold him to make love to him."

-- Norma Jean Baker

I wish I could have met this amazing woman .

For Himx3

te amo con todo mi corazon.
love isn't always perfect.....It isn't a fairy tale & it doesn't always come easy.
love is overcoming obstacles, facing challenges, fighting
to be together, holding on & never letting go. It is a short word, easy to spell,difficult to define, & impossible to live without. love is work but most of all, love is realizing that every hour, every minute, & every second was worth it cause you did it TOGETHER!

:x

Believe nothing, no matter where you read it, or who said it, no matter if I have said it, unless it agrees with your own reason and your own common sense.
--Buddha

I think I over think things way too much & it doesn't necessarily get me in the happiest of mood...
I take what other people say into consideration too much, & it's not even about me .
I know in my heart whats real and whats not .. but hearing so many people talk a whole lot of b.s drives me crazy !! I don't think its to hurt me , the reason people tell me what they tell me but .. it sure does kill me sometimes .. shit IF NO ONE ASKED YOU keep you mouth shut !

x31179 he's here to stay .

:)

From him to me ......

From me to him ....